got to
got to
got to do something

• • hear the bow pressing against the strings
  • play that awful
    • scattering
    • stabbing sound
    • > score the descent towards dictation
    • > It's the last song before the shipwreck [a siren, singing you into shipwreck]
  • i'll google-translate you into existence
    • take yr brainwaves
    • scan them
    •             [i'll devour yr definition if you ever look in my direction]
    • create maximum shape from things and shadows of things
      • • • • • • • • • from lines and shadows of lines
                  • also from time and shadow of time  can you make me a spine out of mother-of-pearl? 
                  •               

                     can you steer me to the path of viral consciousness?

• • • • • • • • • •                                    can you prescribe me a chastity belt?
                  •                                    let me be the microplastics in your glass of water,
                  •                                                                                  baby.l e t m e b e y o u r t o m b s t o n e 
                  •                                                                                                                         h a t.

• • all we wanted was definition
  • all we wanted was to play this one
  • verse, this one time
  • all we wanted 
  • was to be gullible                                                      stuck between a pillow and a soft place.
  • all we wanted                                                                           frustratingly shapeless.
  • was to be lured to the window                                                           in the counternarrative you can find out
  • by red streaks on our ceilings                                                          that frustration actually floats on the surface
  •                                                                                         a thin layer of oil infused with myriads of yous
    • • • • • • • • • • • • • •                                                      usefully esoteric sewers are clogged eversince 
                              •                                                      stuck between the depth of bass and lack of the structure
  • we want to move past language 
  • --for it conditions
    • thought
    • and turns us into
    • unwilling preachers
    • [or very willing witches!]
    • • • • • you and your fantasy realm
              • •  retreat into fiction
                  • • • spells and charms
                      • spells and charms
            • you and your fantasy world
              • •  spells to open closed doors
                •    and alarms to wake you up
                • doubt not the power of words.      mischievous chiasm 
                  • • • • • • •                  your head smells like my elbow
                              •                  my vowels spit out with yours saliva 
                              •                  and I try to speak your surfaces
                              •                  so you could cross my lines
                              •                  where the body bends
                              •                  why you point on me with your [insert the name of the body part]
                              •                  [insert the name you want to be called with at this moment] when you grew such a long [insert the name of the body part]?
    • "this here is the word of       "i guess i enjoyed the silent parts"
      • • • someone or other"          -she said, after the play ended.
          • I always take her to plays. Or ballets. It's her favorite place. [in the fifth act the ballerina smacks her head 
          • We avoid drama this way.                                          against a solid brick wall, bringing the play to 
          • Later we declare ceasefire on a horizontal plane.                 an early end. Early reviews were raving.]
          • There are still disagreements about the sacred - 
          • Like, I have to walk into the marsh once a year, 
          • and she hides away in the mountain and counts the nation's numbered days. 
          • In any case - 
          • We're both convinced someone's gotta fund the path of the species.
          • The walking kind and the swimming kind.
          • [And the rest too.]
          • ___________________________________________________________________________
          • I built you a body with ears lit up like phony pomegranates. 
          • I laid you out for the banquet and everybody said you were just perfect. 
          • I introduced you as a tender melon, but in the end it wasn't worth it. 
          • I gave you away for free, and all you did was rot.
          • I built you a body with a mouth like a wound.
          • I laid you out for the feast and everybody said you were just perfect.
          • I introduced you as a broken vessel, but in the end it wasn't worth it.
          • I gave you away for free, and all you did was spill.
          • I built you a body with a brain like a sponge. 
          • I laid you out for the funeral and everybody said you were just perfect.
          • I introduced you as a soggy creature, but in the end it wasn't worth it. 
          • I gave you away for free, and all you did was soak it all up. 
            • • • • • • • was it you at the end of the night 
                        • i felt far, i felt my bones as lonely and dry 
                        • smoking sigarettes outside of the club 
                        • was it you at the end of the sun 
                        • only a shade against the light 
                        • I searched for your eyes 
                        • in the bathroom 
                        • in the mirror 
                        • in my pursue 
                        • I found a glove 
                        • I found a bulb 
                        • I found the cable that gave us sound 
                        • I turned on my feet 
                        • as a matter of dance 
                        • as a matter of us 

Only one last thing 
                                can you touch my wrist

• • • • • • • • • • • • • and check 
                        • if my heart is beating too fast. Good afternoon ma'am why yes we have checked your signs and symptoms and yes we have indeed found that your heart is beating faster than the average pace recorded in our facilities. What we're gonna do is, well, we're gonna reccommend you for the latest line of treatment. The procedure is really very simple. What we're gonna do is we're going to make a small incision into your chest and we're going to insert a suction device and carefully - and with utmost consideration - remove the sinoatrial node. What's next is we'll replace this node with a small device that will vibrate at the frequency of 432 Hz twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week. We'll get your heartbeat under control in no time. If you'll just sign here __________
                          • • • here_________________________
                              •                                                                and here_________________
                              • we can begin with the preparation period. 
                              • You'll be in tip-top shape once we're finished with you, I gaurantee it! 

Guess what, my heart is beating too fast if you compare.
If you compare, if you asses, if you compute
If you me size up, hook me up, pump it up 
If you give me some hemotherapy
You can get up in there, race my bloodcells
You can slow down my flow, change the beat, if you compare
Comprende Amigo?| Lately, I had some possibilities to befriend the night

• • • • • • • I started letting the cat outside after the dusk
            • I wish I could look with her eyes
            • instead I shut my eyes close everytime  s o m e t h i n g  reminds me about those who are getting colder and colder
              • • • • • • • • •                                                            .   - -Cryolipolysis: freeze your fat!- -    .
                              •                                                                                             
            • Lately, I refuse to understand (I look at the cat's food
            • this is what will become her) because the understanding 
            • was claimed as the domain of villains. Lately,
            • I've been feeling analive, I realized, anal-ivy
            • We are porous things so climbing plants can walk on us easier after sprouting from the dirt behind our fingernails
            • • • • • • • • • • Yes, I wanted to implicate myself,
                              • I am full of shit and often I speak nonsense
                              • This is how I revolt:
                              • I take a pumice stone
                              • I rub it against my feet
                              • I transfer the dead epidermis to the petru dish
                              • I set up a laboratory 
                              • I greet the cat, she is back